My heart raced, my blood pumped hysterically. I had always looked forward to the first day of each school year. This year was not any different. As the bell rang for us to assemble in the parade square, I stepped into the gate. I scrambled to take the last position and scanned down the row, and then I smiled to myself. This is my forth year singing the national anthem and taking the national pledge in my primary school. We proceeded to our classrooms after the assembly, the new classroom, the classroom where all the adventures of my forth year in primary school was going to take place. This was it; new year, new classroom, new classmates. I smiled to myself, hardly able to contain the joy, of attending school, in me.

Someone was late, and on the very first day of school! When the latecomer arrived and stepped into the chaotic classroom together with the teacher, no one took notice of her, except me. At that age, I could not deny that to me, she was astoundingly beautiful. Somehow, she just shone and that was what made me sit up and notice her. Finally, the pupils settled down with much effort from the teacher. Our form teacher that year was Miss Tio. Miss Tio introduced the latecomer as a transfer student from another primary school, her name is Nicole. Miss Tio assigned her to sit in the empty seat next to me, just what I had secretly wished for. When Nicole took a seat, I passed a note to her. The message within was first to welcome her to our school and, out of curiosity, the reason she was late for school today. She just took a glance and raised her head to smile at me, then towards the whiteboard. What did that mean? I wondered to myself in silence.

I was getting very restless; my eyes were fixated on the clock on the wall. Five, four, three, two, one… Ring! The bell indicating recess went. The whole class jumped up from their seat in joy and cheered. We quickly thanked the teacher and grabbed our wallets. Recess is a time for us to play our favorite game of hopscotch. Without forgetting, I tapped Nicole on the shoulder and invited her to join in our game, I was sure the others would not mind that. My group of friends included my very best friend, Denise; Adeline, Melissa, Junnie and Tricia.

“So, why were you late for school?” I attempted to ask Nicole again. “Well, I was not late. I was held back in the principal’s office due to some administrative issues with my transfer here,” she smiled. I realized that I love her smile. It was megawatts, with her teeth shining brighter than the brightest bulb I had ever seen. I yearn to see her smile again. I was full of curiosity about her, something about her just seemed very mysterious.

Soon, we began to spend every of our recesses together. Gradually, I stopped playing hopscotch with my group of friends and hung out with her in the canteen instead. We brought our own lunches from home and enjoy tasting each other’s mother’s cooking. My friends were, however, mad at me. This I know the reason why, because we had spent our recesses in the past three years together playing hopscotch without fail. Then, this year I began to not show up for our games because I was too busy hanging out with Nicole, who secretly revealed to me her dislike for my group of friends. To attain her approval, I gradually drifted away from my group of friends and became best friends with Nicole. I was very disloyal then, I admit to that. However, I got my desserts. Not only has my group of friends began to shun me, Nicole also did the same thing! What was happening? I was perplexed. Her change in attitude was drastic and shocking. I reflect upon my own self, what did I do wrong to anger Nicole? I could not come up with an answer.
I was without friends anymore. I was alone; it was my whole group of friends, which Nicole has also joined, against me. Everytime I see them in school together, laughing and joking around and having fun playing hopscotch during recess. I thought Nicole hated the game of hopscotch, not to mention the company she was with? I know I was wrong in abandoning my friends for Nicole before, but what else did I do wrong? The thought and their gleeful faces haunt me in school during classes, after school at home and in my dreams when I’m sleeping. In that few weeks, I had lost around ten kilograms, I had no appetite for food and suffered from insomnia.

One day, Denise called me up at home. I was so happy she finally spoke to me. She started, “Jane, I noticed that you have been losing much weight, is there something that is troubling you… Hold on, why am I speaking to you, you hypocrite.” Thoughts raced, my palms went sweaty. I beg your pardon, I thought to myself. I was only being disloyal, since when did I become a hypocrite? I asked the questions in my mind aloud. Denise soon started spilling out everything that has happened in these past few weeks. “And that’s why you’re a hypocrite. Just admit it, Jane,” she ended her peculiar story. It turned out that Nicole had been spreading rumors behind my back claiming that I had complained about my friends in front of her. She made up many lies to make all my friends and classmates hate me. I was appalled! A wave of emotions and train of thoughts rushed through me. I had never felt so betrayed but I attempted to explain and salvage myself from this confusing situation.
“Denise! You must trust me. I did not say all that about you! I am declaring the truth to you and please do not believe what rubbish Nicole has said. I know I’ve been a complete disappointment to you all, but I will never say those things about you all. Trust me,” I let it all out in one breath.
“Trust you? After you had abandoned your group of friends?” she seemed to mock me in a very sarcastic tone.
“I know I’ve really been bad and disloyal to abandon my group of true and good friends, but I’ve been blind before and I learnt my lesson. Give me one more chance please,” I begged her. Fortunately, she agreed.
The next day in school, I resumed the life I had before, going to recess with my group of best friends. I was glad the overlook on my part in the end helped to learn a lesson of being a better friend than ever. What left me shock till now is the great change that took place in Nicole. This change in her was inexplicable, drastic, and I was totally shocked. Later, I learnt she had pulled exactly the same stunt on her so-called best friend when we moved on to primary five. I never did regret stop being friends with her.

Dear Principal and Vice Principal,

In this dialogue session, I would like to discuss with your about the need for intensive revision for our O'level express chinese candidates. We all know that the first sitting for the O'level express chinese examination will be during the June Holidays. That is only a short while after sitting for the md-year . It has come to my attention that, unlike neighbourhood schools, our school do not conduct any intensive revision classes for the potential candidates sitting for the paper due to being the minority. Despite having two mock examinations prior to the actual O'level paper itself, it is still not enough revision to ensure scoring a good grade for the examination. I had spoken to many of my neighbourhood friends and all had agreed that even though they found the intensive revision lessons to be a chore, but it has helped them greatly in their preparation for the paper.

Hence, I beseech to you to conduct intensive revision for express chinese students before their O'level paper. I hope that you would consider the above suggestion favourably.

Thank you.

friends are not forever.
best friends are.

suddenly, i feel emo all over again. i guess the exams are coming, my hair turning white. that's what freaks me out. i so can't wait to be in poly and stay there forever.
why do i have such a simple mind? it ain't a good thing. not at all.

im so proud of myself! i ran five rounds around the field. ^^ all thanks to felicia.
1st round
me: i cannot already leh...
felicia: aiyo jane! you can la. only half a round had passed leh!
3rd round
me: really cannot laaaaa~ can die die die....!
felicia: jane, you can do it! take bigger steps! come.
4th round
me: AIYA FELICIA!!! CANNOT LE.. I WANNA FAINT *pants a lot*
felicia: JANE YOU CAN! TAKE BIGGER STEPS!
me: CAN DIE DIE DIE!!!
felicia: CHAI IS THERE...
me: let's go!!!
5th round
me: OMG FELICIA, I WANNA DIE~!!!
felicia: JANE, LAST ROUND ALREADY!!!! CAN ONE CAN ONE.
me: f i n a l l y *pants excessively*

so that was how it went. totally killable. studying is killable too. i just got a papercut. =/

do you know?
yuyang is in temasek poly. that's where i'm going.

went Chung Cheng High today. i miss my primary school friend though i didn't get to see them today when i went. really like that school though it looks a bit china at first, but the whole campus was kind of magnificent. AHS is so small, and our auditorium is so humble compared to their's. anyway, i went there for SS workshop. totally confusing because the teacher who is from Dunman High doesn't really teach the same method as Miss Khoo did. except for the SEQ, i didn't understand the rest of what she has been saying. Julie and i were trying hard to keep awake too. it was not because she was boring. okay, she's quite boring but partly the reason is we all had a long day. and the air con was so nice. i'm surprised that Jollin and Peiqi doesn't even seem tired. i thought they'd be dozing already. haha, just kidding. the teacher seem to always pick on me, am i too chio? the worst thing is even if i answered some of her questions, she didn't give me a chocolate. bias! it's alright, i need to go on a diet. anyone wants to go running together sometime? i need to get moving. LOSE WEIGHT! => anyway, Justina... for your info i saw quite a number of cute guys. but my friend told me those guys in her school are cute and shuai but they will act cool when they see you. haha. so the good and bad side? anyway, the walk to the bus stop was a long but enjoyable journey. scrimpy school didn't wanna sponsor the trip back. =/ the private houses were such a beautiful sight. even if i have to walk this road for like 4 years i don't mind. it's so much more scenic than the walk to the mrt from AHS. Julie, Angela and I were like can we transfer to CCH please? really love that school now lor.

okays, i wanted to blog about my past few events. but it seemed i didn't have the time and now i totally forgot about what i wanted to blog about. just some random things i guess. Xandra is going, she's transferring to the Ngee Ann City branch. i was quite angry,so i told Paige: "Once a novena store manager, always a novena store manager. we will not accept any other store manager except for Xandra." but it doesn't seem we can do anything except to hate Tamagochi forever. haha. i like Winnie the Pooh better! the code of Mos, ssshhh.
and i found these particular phrase very meaningful...
"i would rather fail at something which is meaningful and i've worked hard for. than lead a meaningless life"
-Taiyou No Uta
"朋友归朋友，基本尊重还是要有。" &
"friends may be friends. basic respect must be there."
- Show Luo, conveyed by Xueqi, translated to english by me.

i've caught One Litre of Tears it's really a super sad show. i've cried since the 3rd episode. partly why it's also very sad is because it's a true story. so it's not like you watch already and will think that, aiya it's just a drama. but it's not so detached from reality. it's totally based on true story except some amendments were made to it. it's just so real. and very touching. for the last 3 episodes, i cried every single minute. the next day i woke up, i can only open my eyes like less than half. then as the day goes by, it went back to normal. but that's how bad it is. cry until buaytahan! if you feel stressed for your exams, go watch this show. cry and destress away. LOL. but it's really very good. =)

anyway, on thursday after school i went for the singing session of 蔡旻佑!!! i bet many never heard of him before. he is very shuai in person and i think he sounded better live than in the album. that's so great. and on friday, i went for his autograph session. a lot of people!!! i asked him to draw a heart beside his signature. he gladly did so. he gave his heart to me. =P Felicia was totally exuberant about the thought that he has noticed her. and Xueqi was proud of the fact that he said sorry to her because when she asked him to help her write her name, he wanted to do so. but the qianbian woman beside him was shaking her head and looking very buaysong. so he was like "对不起" and gave her a very apologetic and sincere smile. so we three all had somethign to be proud and happy about =D
and and. on saturday Yulin said she saw me on channel 8 6.30 news!!! on monday when i went back to school, Xueqi told me many of her friends said they saw her on tv too! and Felicia's class also told her. our 3 seconds of fame. how exciting... they said while Felicia was shaking his hand that part, they just nice cut that part out and show it in the news. the funny thing is, i didn't know so many people watched the CHANNEL 8, 6.30PM NEWS!!! especially on a wonderful day such as Saturday. haha. but, oh gosh, im a star leh. i allow you to talk to me. okay, i'm like kind of crapping now. haha.

i can remember a bit of biology even though i only tested Jolynn this morning. but who cares, i dont take bio and i'm totally grateful for that. bio is so boring and confusing... physics is the in thing lor. =)

blabbering...
blabbering...
blabbering...
should stop now. until next time i blog again. tata.
xoxo,
jane

i tell you, TAIYOU NO UTA totally rocks. it may be a very typical story plot, but it's somehow very attractive. and the ending is expected, but a little bit of twist here and there. i heart this totally. Jdramas are so cool because they're so short. Taiyou No Uta is only 10 episodes! the female actress is so chio...

chio right right?
really love that show. i think i'm gonna watch One Litre of Tears soon, highly recommended by Limying too. Limying i heart you, know know? =D

I'm so happy for Julie too because she just called me a while ago and chinese orchestra got GOLD for SYF!!! wow, i'm so proud of them =D

had a totally fun and crazy time with english drama just now. 'cos i was totally high and the group i'm with is really fun as i've mentioned many many many times before. i can't wait for english drama next monday!

talking about Saturday now. i went to Ah Mei's Cafe to have breakfast with Xueqi and we had toast and iced milk tea. the toast is toasted but not hot, so-so only. love the orange straws and iced milk tea still.

she made this opportunity with him possible. ^^
after work, met up with sister and friend at dhoby ghaut after i went back to bathe. bought the tickets for Freedom Writers 12.10 at the Cathay. It's a really great show. very worth it. we finished watching around slightly after 2. my mom found out la, she was kind of angry but what can she do? she cant possibly run back all the way from Malaysia and hantam both of us. haha. then we caught NR7 to simpang and had supper. i had the roti john, we joked about a lot a lot a lot. gosh, i was laughing like mad lah. got wedges? LOL.
sister's friend walked us home and cabbed home to Eunos himself. nice =) reached home around 5. met my cousin online. haha, then we chatted awhile and i went to sleep. woke up like 4pm the next day? would have slept more, but it was too noisy in my house. i think overall not bad la, now i know how clubbers feel. i think it's quite a waste of time la. but i would do it again if there's a chance. =D
mom came home that day, she said "how dare you all go midnight movie ah? last time your mom never go before, you all dare to go ah!" she was laughing whilst, i bet she is jealous we get to do this and she doesn't. next time when she retires and have nothing to do. i shall bring her out on a mom-daughter outing and make her feel young =)

i have a lot of time, but i somehow, i feel there's not enough time.
is there something i dont know which everyone knows?
it feels very weird.
but be happy, jane! ^^

It's 5am now. Just got home. apparently i enjoyed myself thoroughly today and no, i didn't choke on my popcorn. more tomorrow, when im free to update =)

yes, i'm enjoying a juicy orange now. this is the only time i enjoy an orange so much because usually it's really sour. i realize, this is just like life. sometimes when you're lucky, you get the sweets. when you're not you get the sours. many a times, we get more sours than sweet. but, quoted from bentan "too bad, suck it up". amongst the sourness, you get vitamins. so it's good from what seemed to be bad. in life, there may be many trials and tribulations. but if we do not endure through it, we may never get the good that comes out of it. so everyone, suck it up. =)
i never figured out why i wrote that chim paragraph at the top. i was just speaking to Justina on MSN, i also said a whole lot og chimness and she was like ZOMG, you not jane are you. haha. seriously, what's wrong with me? i'm like getting emo nowadays. thanks Hui Ling, i'll just think positive. i shall not be so negative all the time. like who wants to read a blog full of teenage angst and emotions? like, eww. but but, i still think the above paragraph was really well done =)
today after school i met up with Xueqi again. we went Bugis. we were so heart broken. saw many many nice things but cant buy due to a lack of funds. =( donations, anyone? ate Long John's. it really isn't as bad as some people said it out to be. i still find it nice. except the fries seems a lil bit worse and saltier. their potato chips are nice. only $1.20!!! Long John's!!! haha. we didn't meet our aim today. which is to see some handsome guys around. =(
Ah Mei's Cafe tomorrow! roti prata, iced milk tea and orange straws, here we come! their straws make ncie hearts b'cos it's orange and it's unique. thanks to me, people now know there's orange straws. it's chio, like me. chio people discover chio stuffs. =D
midnight movie tomorrow! parents and bro will be overseas for the weekend, not together of course. so my sis and I decided, midnight movie it is ^^ Justina wish for me to choke on my popcorn tomorrow b'cos i can't meet Jollin and her. thanks Justina, but i only eat nachos. =P i'm so sorry ya? next time. next time i promise.
Taiyou No Uta rocks. =D i'm on the seventh episode now. hopefully can watch finish the rest, which is just 3 episodes by Sunday. thanks Limying. the show's really great. Kaoru is so chio. ^^